On the night of the
23rd I got into a very long, text conversation, with Gingersnap.
OMG… I don't think
he knows how much I love him yet, but we're so on the same page about
everything else. I got a chance to say so many of the things I wanted to say.
Like how it's a crime against humanity that he's never really been sexually
satisfied and how this is way more than just sex to me. He agreed on the 'more
than sex', but it's going to take him awhile to get used to how much I really
do enjoy him, across the board, even without the sex.
He asked me what I
was doing yesterday, and I told him nothing, even though the Dragon had made a
breath about stopping by. I chose Gingersnap over him. *sigh* I'm trying to
feel guilty about that, but the harsh reality is that the Dragon NEVER shows.
At least with Gingersnap I feel more of a connection forming. The Dragon will
still, and always, be the only sweetie with bareback rights. But I feel that if
it's a choice between making plans with Gingersnap vs. making plans with the
Dragon, I'm going to choose Gingersnap.
I turn him on so
much, and he's so honored to be wanted by me. He's been very underappreciated
for a long time. See above, RE: crime against humanity. I can't wait to be the
person who changes that for him.
*sigh*
However, the morning
came and went without a word. BUT - a big snowstorm hit yesterday, so I'm sure
he got called into work. I was disappointed that he didn't at least text to say
he couldn't make it, but maybe he feels it's a given if I'm aware of the weather
conditions.
I miss Bran.
A song came over my
heavy metal while I was doing my yoga today. It's my radiomancy kicking in.
It's perfect for how I feel about him right now. But, very bittersweet and sad,
so I'm not going to tell him about it. I'll just post it here so it's at least
in the ether a bit.
I hope I hear from
Gingersnap soon.
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