Sorry about skipping
yesterday's entry.
Night before last I
got to bed a little late and then yesterday morning I hit the snooze for half
an hour. Then I got up and did coffee while watching Teen Wolf with every
intention of going through my normal morning routine once I finished coffee and
Season 3…
And then I had a
lunch hour guest.
After that I just
said 'fuck it' and started on Season 4 while I waited for the Blue Falcon.
Right… so, on with
it:
Mental Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Therapy - I’m
still doing really well. Better than expected even. Thanks to the Dragon I do
believe that the black hole is gone and I don't see it returning any time soon.
I finally got a chance to test it out yesterday… it's in the 'Recent
Encounters' below. It's still too soon to really tell for sure because I’m not
really sure if I fed yesterday or not… but, I still feel much better, so that's
the important thing.
- Writing - I
still have yet to start on another Ghost Story installment… I think I'm going
to try to do that today. I don't really feel like it. Not because of apathy,
but because I'm feeling so much better that I don't really feel that I need it.
Still, I have to
keep putting out the call.
I still need more
sweeties.
Quality sweeties.
We never know when
my next meltdown might hit. It would be in everyone's best interests if I had a
bank of sweetie love to get me through it next time.
- Sleep /
Fitbit - 8 hours 4 minutes, 4x awake, 16x restless, total of 49 minutes
awake/restless. That included a midnight trip to get water which I had no
trouble falling back asleep after. Bless those damn sleep meds!!
- Fur-babies -
Noting new to report.
Physical Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Blood Sugar -
130 - but inaccurate - I ate a pouch of fruit snacks when I got up in
the middle of the night.
Relationships / Family:
- Bran - Nothing
really new here. Just the same old same old. He's quitting his second job and
_she's_ getting a job, so he might not even need a second anymore.
*sigh* whatever… it
is what it is. She has her usefulness.
At least he sees her
for what she is now and he's not being pulled in by her fangs and claws.
He'll come home to
me eventually.
- The Unicorn -
Tonight's the night!! - STAYCATION COMMENCES - The Blue Falcon is taking
her on a special trip on Monday *shh, it's a secret* - I'm going along for the
ride. I'll just sit there and watch them play and have fun. I'm totally good
with that.
Relationships / Sweeties:
[ If you're a reader and having
trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and
below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bio's there. - this is a
work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed,
don't worry, I'll get to you. ]
- Recent
Encounters - RIGHT, so very high potential that I've got myself a new
sweetie here!!
I’m not going
through the normal update points. I'll just tell you what happened.
He messaged me on
Fet a couple of nights ago. He's a young professional (early 30's). He loved
the Cougar thing… he was very respectful and I enjoyed chatting with him.
Yesterday morning he
asked if it was too soon to meet me in person. Of course, it wasn't. So we made
plans for his lunch hour. We both ate beforehand and we proceeded directly to
the Chamber of Snuggles upon his arrival.
It didn't take us
long to get naked, even though we started with clothes on. I let him set the
pace.
I enjoyed touching
his naked skin.
He _really_ enjoyed
me touching his naked skin.
He told me my touch
was reaching him deeply, in a 'better than sex' kind of way.
We did try to have
sex, but he lost his erection and we just went back to the snuggles. I just
kept finding new ways of touching him and he kept eating it up. He said my
claws were hitting him on all levels… somewhere between tickle and pain… he
loved it.
I stroked his cock a
lot too, but he liked my claws 'non-sexually' on his skin more.
When the timer went
off for him to leave he begged for just five more minutes, so I gave that to
him.
We hugged goodbye.
He was still
messaging me the second he left and we've kept the conversation going ever
since.
Turns out he's had a
strange aversion to intercourse for about a year or so now. He craves touch and
intimacy, but not sex. This has left him abandoned by many potential partners
and very very touch starved.
Yeah.
You bet your ass I’m
taking care of that.
He's not alone or
abandoned anymore. I'm going to take care of him from now on.
- Updates on
Favorites -
- Blue Falcon -
We had a really good date yesterday.
We also proceeded
directly to the Chamber of Snuggles and I told him all about the Dragon and how
he helped me…
Then I told him I
was hungry and protein starved, so we made plans to go to the grocery store to
just pick up hamburger meat and see what we could make of it.
LUCK WAS WITH US!
On our way in there
were two women grilling outside the store and they had samples of steak
seasoned hamburger patties with a coupon. We got the last two samples on the
plate and the Blue Falcon literally SWOONED, they were _that_ good. We were
sold.
Dinner was
hamburgers.
I topped mine with
onion and avocado.
Then we watched
Swiss Army Man. It was a good movie!!
--
So… before dinner,
when we were talking, the Blue Falcon noted that there's been a 'shift' in our
relationship. He says we're no longer quite like 'sweeties' or 'friends with
benefits'… took me a little bit to figure out what he meant because he said we were
more like 'just friends'… which I totally disagree with. But, then I understood
that he meant that our relationship isn't as lustful as it used to be. We're
more intimate now, just not quite as sexually lustful.
I guess I’m okay
with that.
He also noted my
shudder when talking about this girl he almost considered dating and told me he
needs to test me around another girl to find out if it's just that one girl
that gets that reaction of if I'm developing any jealousy and possessiveness
issues.
I told him I'm
absolutely developing jealousy and possessiveness issues and that I'll own that
shit one-hundred percent.
But, it's not going
to stop me from wanting a proper mate and mother of his children for him.
I own my emotions.
They don't hold me back.
I'll always love the
Blue Falcon. That's never going to change.
But, handling shifts
away from lust tells me that I can handle the shift to just friends too… we'll
always be close, but maybe not always naked close.
It is what it is.
Relationships / Potentials
and Honorable Mentions:
- The One
Timers - Nothing new to report.
- The Hopefuls
- Friday has been checking in on me more… it's good to know that he's
still there. He's also actively beginning to take responsibility for this funk
that he's been in. He knows he needs to pull himself out, but I don't think
he's quite figured out how to do it yet.
He'll get there. I
have faith in him.
I'm sure he'll be
fucking me soon enough and that's going to start a whole new chapter in my
life…
He's going to be
amazing with me.
- Honorable
Mentions - Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
Not really anything
to say in closing.
Wait… I guess that's
not really true.
I miss the lust with
the Blue Falcon.
I'm just realizing
this now.
It might just be
that I miss LUST in general, though.
Fuck… I need to be
more sexually open with my new sweeties.
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