I hate having to think before my brain has even processed the first cup of coffee. But people who get up way earlier than me seem to think that's a good time to start a conversation.
Meh… shut up, people.
Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:
- Therapy - From what I can tell, there's been no movement on the depression. I'm able to smile a little bit, but I think that's more from me being able to tolerate the depression more and not from it actually improving in any way. I still have my doubts that anything could help, but I am seeing the Blue Falcon today and that always helps.
- Writing - I didn't have any fantasies in my head, so I used a writing prompt and it worked. I've now got a really good paranormal romance cooking about a dragon shifter and his BBW conquest of a lifetime. It's nice to know that I've still got it when I want it…
*sigh*
Now if I could just get Torvus to start writing itself again.
- Reading - Still reading the same zombie series, but I'm on book 4 of 5 and I can get through one book in a day, so it's not long now. And then I'll be moving on to the Awake in the Dark series. I've read books one and two before, but at the time book 3 hadn't been written yet. Now all 5 books are out and all on Kindle Unlimited. It's time for me to devour the hell out of them.
- Sleep / Fitbit - 8 hours 1 minute, 3x awake, 15x restless, 45 minutes awake/restless.
It seemed to take much longer for me to fall asleep last night. I blame that on the little post ramen nap I had in the early evening.
- Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.
Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:
Yeah, right!
Relationships / Family:
- Bran - There continues to be promising news about turnover at locations closer to me. There's also news of a pending hiring freeze which would mean that any additional vacant positions would have to be filled from within.
Yes, it's all very promising… but it's still not bringing him home yet.
Every day my sense of hopelessness over the situation grows. I'm starting to feel like he's never coming home. Like his moving up north was the worst decision he could have ever made.
I know there were things that had to happen for Karma's sake, like his being utterly fed up with the screeching harpy and the devil children. Also, my sense of independence in living on my own for awhile. But come on. We've learned.
Let us have each other back now, please?
- The Unicorn - Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Sweeties:
[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]
- Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.
- Updates on Favorites -
- Blue Falcon - I get to spend the majority of the day with him today and I'm really happy about that. I gave him the option of starting our time together later, but he chose the earlier option. I don't know why I'm surprised. I know how much he enjoys my company.
*smile*
Blue Falcon Day.
YAY!
Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:
- The One Timers - One Stroke is barely talking to me at all now. I think he's done. Either he got what he came for or he's completely mortified about the one stroke. I don't know. I don't really care. It was a test. He knew I needed him as a friend. He made it clear that he needed me as a lover. I let him have me and now he's evaporated just like all the others. *sigh* Whatever. I don't care. I guess I’m just not meant to have any friends at all. Just a never ending series of one night stands.
Fuck 'em.
Once Bran comes home I won't even think about them anymore.
- The Hopefuls - I have one very promising blip on the radar… *shrug* who knows, though. He'll probably leave me after just one fuck too.
- Honorable Mentions - Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
Second cup of coffee is probably cool by now…
I need to see if I can get some writing done before the Blue Falcon today.
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