Unicorn Day

I wouldn't necessarily say that I took all of yesterday off. I just didn't do anything yesterday except spend time with the Unicorn. She'd napped so much the day before that she woke up about an hour before my alarm went off and so she was bright eyed and bored, ready to go. So ready in fact that she interrupted my morning session with the snooze button on my alarm.

Yeah, she kinda got yelled at a little bit for that.

Oh, also, my Keurig is shot - it's not playing nice anymore. Thankfully I have a half working flex brew and I can still do a pot of ground coffee. But it's going to take a bit to figure out how much water/grounds, etc. make the perfect morning of liquid hugs for my brain.

Anyway - the Unicorn pretty much jumped right to the Buffy/Angel-thon and stuck with it all day.

She's was still sick, but feeling better enough that she refused Vitamin C and medicine for her symptoms.

We also went around and tried to get people to buy cookie dough for her school fundraiser. We did make one good sale!! So, that was awesome.

I miss her… but I see her again next weekend, so that's good.

The rest of the night was spent reading. (of course)

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - I’m not sure if I feel less depressed today or not. The pain isn't quite as sharp. I guess I'm finally acclimating to the fact that Bran didn't come home at the 'Year and a Day' that I was hoping for. I know he's coming home. I’m pretty sure that it will be sometime in November, which doesn't seem so terribly far away. But, there's no way of knowing.

I still get really lonely… I'm really lonely now. I'm getting emotionally attached to one of my potentials and I'm craving even the slightest of contact from anyone.

It's not 'black hole' level lonely… at least I don't think it is. But I'm craving touch most of all… of course I’m craving touch. But I slurp up even the tiniest kind word texted in my direction too. Yeah, not black hole level, but there's definitely a sense of the big empty going on here.

Hopefully, Valkyrie has some ideas. I see her on Thursday this week.

 - Writing - Still on hold.

 - Reading - I'm stupid.

I started reading a book that I bought for free (probably more than a year ago) and I didn't check to see whether or not the rest of the series was available on Kindle Unlimited or not… and then I got sucked right the fuck in. Totally hooked.

*hangs head in shame*

I ended up having to spend $10 of what was left on my Vanilla Gift Card to buy the rest of the series. There's enough left over to pay for my KU at the end of the month… but this is not an expense I can keep affording… I can't keep buying books… this sucks!!

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 8 hours 2 minutes, 2x awake, 14x restless, 46 minutes awake/restless

 - Fur-babies - The Unicorn and I stopped to hang out with Catmom a little bit outside yesterday while we were making out cookie dough rounds. Catmom didn't place an order, but we got a chance to say hi to Dreamy and Splotches. She had another one of her kitties out there too. Beautiful white long hair who's 17 years old. He mostly just laid there and ignored us. He barely even flinched when I tried to pet him. He seemed pretty sweet, though.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Blood Sugar - FUCK, I forgot again!

 - Exercise/Yoga - Today's the day… I officially have to start with this again…

This is another one of those 'self-care' things that I find it so hard to talk myself into. It's so good for me, but I can barely manage the tiniest shred of motivation to do it.

Let's hope I do something right today and get it started, though.

Fuck, all I want to do is lay in bed and read.

 - Weight Management - I see my weight loss doctor tomorrow and the news isn't good. *sigh* puckernuts!

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - He's sick, and he fucked up his shoulder. So he spent most of yesterday completely flattened. I got a snap from him a little bit after the Unicorn left.

I feel bad for him…

Not that he'd let me take care of him at all if he were home, but he'd at least have a quieter space to rest. I know how to leave a person alone.

I miss him so much.

 - The Unicorn - I miss her now too.

She's still calling a lot of things on Buffy/Angel before they happen, which is so epically awesome. You can't even imagine the level of my pride on that one. She did get the Season 7 big bad wrong on Buffy, but that's okay, it was still a good guess given the information she had on the subject.

I still hate it that she was so sick and there was nothing much that I could do about it. She kept wanting soup and I had nothing, so she had to settle for me making a fancy ramen… which I guess is okay.

Hopefully, she's feeling better now.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ I took out the section on sweetie bio's, the whole 'sweetie' thing never really worked out. I only ended up with a bunch of one night stands. I'm giving up on sweeties. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - Nothing new to report.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One-Timers - Nothing new to report.

 - The Hopefuls - I’m still oddly excited about that one potential. Ever since we cleared up that misunderstanding I have a renewed interest in him and I can feel an emotional attachment forming. Which is really not good. I'm setting myself up for some pretty serious disappointment and I know it.

There is something so very wrong with me.

Anyway.

Slight hiccup there last night.

He confessed to wanting to get me pregnant.

This isn't the first time I've run into a breeder fetish, and the last time I blocked the guy. I didn't want that to happen this time. I did respond that I can't get pregnant and I received no response to that message.

I sent an apology this morning because I did actually use the words 'breeder fetish' last night and I realize I might have offended him.

Hopefully, I didn't get blocked… that would suck.

 - Honorable Mentions - Nothing new to report.

End Notes:

So, here it is… Monday.

Time to suck it the fuck up and try to instill some healthier habits.

Ugh…

Fuck you.

Dun wanna.