Game of Thrones Vacation...

I took all of yesterday and a significant portion of today off.

The Unicorn was back with her dad and it was time to get my one week free trial of HBO on Prime and get my Game of Thrones on.

All I can really say about Season 7 is this:

OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK NOT GOOD NOT GOOD NOT GOOD!!!

And that's that.

Hopefully, that doesn't spoil it for you.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - The depression hasn't moved… not one bit. Sometimes I think about what the Blue Falcon has said about me getting more Vitamin D and getting out and doing things. Breaking my rut and stuff. Those are good ideas in theory… but how much are they really going to work in practice? I mean, what the fuck would I do if I tried to wander down towards a park anyway? I'd just bring my tablet and try to read with too much sun over my shoulder and ants trying to climb up me, and really, who wants that?

I mean, face it, the outdoors just aren't my thing, so how are they going to help me?

I'm happier just reading a book in the comfort of my squishy bed.

 - Writing - So, as you can probably guess, with the depression not moving anywhere. This hasn't moved anywhere. Or at least I think it hasn't. I haven't tried yet. I am still on vacation until tomorrow… so, we'll see.

 - Reading - I've officially taken the plunge and gone after my 1-month free trial of Kindle Unlimited - So, I need to prepare to have that come off my card in a month. I finally found a 'book one' from my 'free downloads' that made me want to read a book two and so forth.

There's another series I read the first couple of books in a while back. I need to re-read them as well.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 5 hours 38 minutes, 4x awake, 17x restless, 42 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Other- I did an STD screening (which I admit I need to keep doing more often and I will now that I know they have less invasive ways of doing it) - Everything is negative. I'm totally clean.

 - Weight Management - I know I need to get my fat ass into a gym… I just don't know how I'm going to manage it. It might be something that waits for Bran to come home, again…

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - We talked this morning. No news on whether or not he's made a decision about Texas. He has my support either way. There's some good news, the wage garnishment has eased up a bit. I'm not sure when it's going to rear its ugly head and start taking bites out of his ass again, but it's being nice for now. The bad news is still the same bad news as ever… no real sign of when or if he's coming home. *sigh* Kids from far and wide are going to be returning to college soon and leaving their summer jobs. There's a good chance one of those vacancies would be a hole that Bran could fill. We still don't know yet. And that’s all it ever seems to be… a lot of not knowing.

 - The Unicorn - Smack in the middle of 'it couldn't have happened to a more deserving fellow' - JerkDad was in a major car accident on Wednesday. He's fine but his car is totaled. He called me in some sort of a fugue state worrying about how he was going to pick the Unicorn up that night. I ended up suggesting that the Blue Falcon and I give her a ride.

I knew the Blue Falcon would do it in a heartbeat.

Turns out that not only does JerkDad think that Bran and I are done and the Blue Falcon is my new boyfriend, but he also believed that the Blue Falcon and I were cohabitating as well.

Omg… the what-the-fuckery abounds.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - No code name yet. You know the rules. He must survive a second date and request a 3rd, and then we get to talk about code names.

We met on FetLife, so he'd seen me naked and expressed great interest. I felt compelled to politely state for the record that I'm a proud Cougar and thus my interest in him would be 'not', but I didn't mind making a friend.

Eventually, we took the conversation to Google Hangouts.

He kept flirting with me, despite the 'just friends' label and eventually I realized that this wasn't about me. It wasn't about my needs. It was about him and what he needed. He was touch starved and he needed me.

Okay, so I made an exception.

He showed up very early this morning before I'd even had my coffee.

    - 1) good company: He's a nice guy - I know he's a nice guy.

    - 2) good conversation: The Bulk of our talking has been online. He's a good conversationalist there and I’m sure that under different circumstances he'd be an equally great conversationalist in person. But this was early morning for both of us and we were both much more focused on the physical aspects of our time together.

Hell, I was still half asleep. There was no way I was going to manage any kind of thoughtful conversation.

    - 3) good snuggles: He's a TIGHT cuddler. One of those wrap around you like a python and squeeze kind of snugglers. There were a few times when I could barely breathe because he had my nose mashed so hard into his chest. It was pretty amazing!!

    - 4) good sex: It took us a bit to figure out the angles, but we managed. Then he was inside me for exactly one stroke before he pulled out and rolled away, muttering something about taking his time, right before he said 'oh no!' a lot as he came all over himself.

I'm not the least bit offended by this.

It's been a long time for him and his body wasn't used to the attention, it reacted in a perfectly normal way. But, I know he's still really embarrassed about it. I'm trying to soothe the fragile male ego here, but I'm pretty sure he's likely to get distant.

After that he slipped into the sex coma, also more than okay.

Then he put his clothes on and left.

The entire date lasted about 90 minutes.

*sigh*

It is what it is… they always leave right after the sex.

I thought we'd have more time together as friends, but I guess not.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - I've mostly been leaving him alone again.

I did invite him up for snuggles after we dropped the Unicorn off on Wednesday. He politely declined. He had some things that he needed to be well rested for.

I did message him just a little bit ago and ask him how he liked his dinner on Wednesday. It was the first time he'd tried White Castle. It was also the first time I'd tried White Castles fish sandwich. The Blue Falcon said the food was basically 'meh', neither good nor bad, and that's about the reaction I expected.

Now I'm going to go back to leaving him alone again.

I get to see him on Sunday. That's going to have to be good enough for me.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing new to report.

 - The Hopefuls - I have another date coming up on Sunday during the early day. Nice guy, poly, we met on OKC. He's bringing ice cream.

I wouldn't say I have my hopes UP exactly… but he does seem really nice.

 - Honorable Mentions - Nothing new to report.

End Notes:

And that's pretty much it…

I'm done with Game of Thrones and I'm putting off everything else important until tomorrow. I'm just going to read for the rest of the day and into the late evening.