At least I got the vacuuming done yesterday...

It's weird having to save up all my housework for weekends, but with the current situation of not being able to make noise during the day, that's what I'm left with. It seems okay for the most part. At least I got the vacuuming done yesterday.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

- Therapy – Yesterday one of my favorite celebrities, Stephen Amell, posted about a recent encounter with Social Anxiety. He received hundreds of responses, including mine. I'm not sure how much help mine was because I basically just told him that I HIDE. Which isn't an option for him, obviously. So, I ended by telling him to call Jensen Ackles. It was weak, but Ackles has dealt with crippling social anxiety and shyness for years, so if anyone could help... he could.

- Writing – Still on hold – But I’m working the flares on Misha's leg warmers now.

- Reading – Nothing new yet.

- Sleep / Fitbit – 7 hours 29 minutes, 1x awake, 14x restless, 37 minutes awake/restless - not a bad night at all. I still didn't want to get out of bed this morning, but fuck... it's Movie Night!

- Fur-babies – Dreamy paid a visit last night right when I was at the height of my housework and cleaning... I tried to get stuff done anyway, but he didn't stay down for his nap and he followed me instead. It seems he needs the physical energy of my presence close to him if he's going to rest, LOL. Great, I've got a therapy cat with BPD and Insomnia issues. The irony of that fucking kills the hell out of me. So, I took a LONG break from housework and stayed in bed so he could have his rest... omg... too funny.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

… meh...  

Relationships / Family:

- Bran – He reached for me in the night.

He reached for me in the groggies of morning... well... our morning, which is like – anywhere between noon and one.

I was setting up to go about my day with coffee and November (my chromebook, because her keyboard is quieter than Victor's [my laptop]), he woke up and reached for me. There was hugging... sidways and awkward with me sitting up and him still laying down, but hugging nonetheless.

I just handed him the XBox remote... he's going to game now.

This is the kind of shit I love.  

Just being next to him while he games or does his thing. Just basking in his presence. Just having him there. Just doing my own thing while he does his thing and both of us are content with ourselves and each other.

I love my life now.

- The Unicorn – I hope she's having a good holiday with here Dad and the families. I don't envy her right now.

Relationships / Sweeties:

- Updates on Favorites -  

- Blue Falcon – Movie Night tonight!!

- Sweeties -

- Bear -  I got a sweet Merry Christmas Eve from Bear when I woke up this morning. I said the same back. I'm glad to know he's there and thinking of me.

- Friday – Yeah, I know he's not totally a Sweetie yet, but where else to file him? I haven't heard from him since he tapped in and said he never stops thinking about me, and I’m okay with that. I understand who and what I am to him. I know that his life is crazy and getting away to have a text conversation isn't always easy. I know he's there and he knows I'm here for him too. It's all good.

 - AmbiguSweeties -

 - Pathfinder – No word out of Pathfinder either, but he's with his family too. So, it's cool. Again, I know exactly where I stand with him.

Relationships / Just Friends:

- Jasper – I've been meaning to check in on Jasper. I finally sent him a text just now. I totally forgot to tell him that Bran is home, so I just gave him the news on that. He's happy to hear it! He also just told me that he's going to ask HLS to marry him!! I’m so fucking happy for him!! What amazing news for a check in. I am just beside myself. I'm so happy for him.

End Notes:  

So, this is shaping up to be a great Christmas Eve. I'm pretty sure Bran and I are doing out traditional Christmas Day tomorrow. That will be fun. I've missed him so much.

I'm revamping out holiday's. Normally we'd spend the entire day Netflixing, but I think that's a little too much sitting on his ass doing nothing for him, so I'm ratcheting that back to at least watching something while we eat. A movie or a couple episodes of a show. Some 'us' time, but not a whole day of it. After that he can just go back to gaming and I can go back to my knitting or reading or whatever. It's not that big of a deal for him to spend the entire day devoted to me anymore. I feel like I get enough attention now, so it's okay.

Happy Holidays, Everyone.