Coffee and Contemplation with a side of Yarn Therapy got cut short this day (I was going to say morning, but it's already 1:30) - The Unicorn woke up when I was only ¼ of the way into episode one of the new Black Mirror.
She got treated to an Earl Grey breakfast with a side of Cinnamon Sugar Doughnut. :)
It's going to be a good day.
Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:
- Therapy – I’m feeling less annoyed about the residue from the Screeching Harpy days today.
The truth is that abuse went on for months... close to a year and more when you add Bran's absence on top of it... not to mention the 'still lingering' complicatedness of the whole fucking deal.
The point is... it took a long ass time to get better, and to be honest, It's not really over yet. So, it's no wonder that I'm not healing.
I need to forgive myself for that.
- Writing – Still on hold – My hands were already cramping when I picked up the knitting needles this day... ugh... I'm not sure how much longer I can keep devoting so much time to the yarn.
- Reading – I read a little bit more of this Druid book last night. To be honest, I'm not impressed. I'm not triggered or turned off by the shock value of the 'rape' scenes. I see what the author was trying to do with them. But I'm a little weirded out by the Alpha Vampires attitudes towards humans and the heroine. Not only are they all rapists too, but the intent is to rape her pregnant and force her to breed with them.
Meh...
Not sure how long I'm going to hold out with this one.
- Sleep / Fitbit – 6 hours 11 minutes, 2x awake, 12x restless, 28 minutes awake/restless - Fuck, no wonder I’m so tired.
- Fur-babies – There was a visit from Dreamy last night, but for some reason I can't remember any details. I think I'm just too tired. Meh...
Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:
- Blood Sugar – Crap. I checked it this morning. But I neglected to save the reading. (grrr) I think it was like 139 or something. Which isn't perfect, but it's still better than what it was.
Relationships / Family:
- Bran – It's really hard to say what gets him in the mood, but Mo made himself known this morning. He got some strokes and kisses. Then Bran kept looking down at me all expectantly so I felt obligated to follow up with a little oral play. This, of course, led to Bran asking for my pants to be removed.
He's not lasting very long these days. The byproduct of not having a lot of sex. He's just out of practice and I can tell that upsets him. He hates it that his stamina just isn't there, but what am I supposed to do. I make myself available. It's not my fault if he never takes the bait.
He keeps saying we should have sex more, but then we never have sex more. And I know he's stressed out about something, but he's not talking to me about it, so I have no clue what the fuck it is.
It's still okay, though...
The love is totally there. The sex doesn't have to be for us to know that the love is there. And I gave him a kiss while I was getting coffee and I thanked him for morning Mo.
I will always be grateful for the intimacy between us.
- The Unicorn – We're both tired... it's going to be a bit before either of us wake the fuck up.
Relationships / Sweeties:
- Updates on Favorites -
- Blue Falcon – Movie night tomorrow. The Unicorn gets to come along too!!
- Sweeties -
Nothing new to report.
- AmbiguSweeties -
- Pathfinder - Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Just Friends:
Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
My hands hurt all the way up to the backs of my shoulder blades.
Ugh. Knitting is murder.
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