I think crying it
out helped a lot. I’m willing to bet that sometimes I bottle things up too much
because I'm trying to prove it to myself, and everyone else, that I'm resilient
enough to get through this. This causes that internal tension and conflict to
build up and eventually I just need to let it loose.
Then, some asshole
yesterday, guy couldn't take no for an answer. And as much as that's hot in
some circumstances. This totally wasn't the right time an d place for someone
to get bossy with me. First he demanded I add him on facebook. Then he demanded
we talk voice. Then he demanded we video chat. And he was 'convinced' that he
could just make me smile and 'all my problems', including my mental illness,
were going to go away.
I wound up hardcore
going off on him. And he just made it worse.
I also tapped the
Kohai yesterday, no response tap yet.
I tapped lil'sis and
told her how her karmafuckbomb was working out. It was all pretty much as
expected. I touched base with some other people on Facebook too.
All of this went a
long way towards making me feel better.
But, naturally, no
one made me feel better than Gingersnap. *warm sigh* He tapped in just enough
to let me know that he's okay, but he needs snuggles too. He says we'll see
each other again soon.
I can't wait.
I seriously never
stop thinking about him.
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Oh, I'm buffing my social media integration again. So I'm trying to see what happens if I hashtag my blog titles.
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