Seriously… just what the fuck?

Drat! I double booked myself for Sunday!

I have a date with someone I met on OKC, but that's also the Blue Falcon's movie night and I wanted to get together with him earlier so we could fit in some Twin Peaks too.

UGH!

If given the choice, I'd probably choose the Blue Falcon. But I know that choice doesn't serve me. That choice only keeps me deadlocked in a pattern that's doomed to fail.

No, it's better to keep the date.

It's over in enough time for me to still make it to movie night. I just have to miss out on some twin peaks and some Blue Falcon time.

Not a big deal.

I think…

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - Valkyrie is more fed up with this whole Bran being gone situation than I am. I'm just numb to the pain now, but she's expressing some discomfort in seeing me suffer like this.

Weird… I feel stronger today.

We also talked about the Blue Falcon and how he came to my session last week. She's amazed at how much 'my type' he really is. She loves him. It's awesome.

Then we just spent time laughing about Supernatural… OMG… she's the best.

I have to try looking again for a local Supernatural Fan Group. Hopefully, I find something this time.

 - Writing - No clue…

 - Reading - Started in on some pretty good erotica… it's really helping to jump start my sex drive, and that’s an extremely good thing right now. This will make people happy.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 7 hours 58 minutes, 1x awake, 14x restless, 25 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

Not today.

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - He has this opportunity to go down to Texas to help with the disaster relief effort. It's something that would look really GREAT for him with his job. The one hitch is that Texas might decide they like him and want to keep him, so he needs to talk to some of his higher ups around here to make sure that can't happen. Then he's likely to head down and help out.

No overtime cap - paid double - no screeching harpy or devil hell spawn.

Pretty much the ultimate in paid vacations from the slice of life drama.

It would be good for him.

It would be good for her too. She'd get a taste of true independence the way that I did, with him just up and leaving. It would be interesting to see how she handled it or even if she'd handle it at all.

I think he should go.

He's sure as hell not coming home to me anytime soon. So, he might as well do something good for someone somewhere else.

 - The Unicorn - She goes home tonight and I'm going to hate to see her go… the last two weeks have been a blast.

I know she'll come back soon…

I'm really glad school is starting. She needs to be with her friends.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing yet… possibly soon, though.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - I still can't believe I double booked myself for Sunday…

What the fuck…

Seriously… just what the fuck?

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing new to report.

 - The Hopefuls - Some sweet cubs blipping the radar… we'll see if any of them work out.

 - Honorable Mentions - Some non-cubs blipping the radar as well… I'm starting to feel like the 'non-cub' aspect isn't going to be enough to hold me back from giving into any sexual advances.

It's the nature of the succubus/sex mage beast.

I just can't let a guy leave with blue balls.

End Notes:

I'm looking forward to my date on Sunday. He's Poly, so there's a chance that this might not even degenerate into sex right away. He's bringing ice cream and he wants to look at my InterCourses cook book…

I'll let you know how it goes.

I need a better support system.

I really wish I could get the guys my age or older to stop trying to flirt with/date me. I'm really not attracted to them. I like my boys young.

Of course, the downside there is that the young ones are only interested in their quick gratification and then moving on. They're not all like my beautiful Blue Falcon who actually comes back and takes an interest in a friendship and who I am as a person.

*sigh*

I need friends now.

I need people who are going to be there for me when Bran doesn't come home.

I need people who are going to grab a bottle of wine, come over, and just sit with me and talk for a bit. Maybe watch a movie or do something else to distract me from the pain. Something that isn't sex where they just get up and leave right after and then never speak to me again.

I can't keep putting all of this on the Blue Falcon. He won't always be there.

I need a better support system.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - I see Valkyrie today… we'll see how she feels about weighing in on the friends thing

 - Writing - Still on hold

 - Reading - I have 90 books I have to sift through for download…

90

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 8 hours 5 minutes, 3x awake, 10x restless, 28 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - Splotches and Dreamy dropped by for a little bit yesterday, but no cuddles were requested. Dreamy was really agitated for some reason. He didn't want to be in my apartment. He wanted to be home. He was probably just hungry or needed to use the litter box. The Unicorn got to pet Splotches a little bit, so that was sweet.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - INR - I still have giant bruises on the backs of both hands from last week. I hope my INR is normal to the finger poke this week or they're going to have a hell of a time trying to draw blood out of me from under these bruises.

 - Nervous System - FINALLY I get to see him tomorrow. My body has been all fucked up since that road trip!

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - Nothing new to report.

 - The Unicorn - We had a good Buffy Angel day yesterday. Then in the prevening we took a break to meet a new friend. He's someone spiritually open that the Unicorn doesn't have to hold back with. She needs that so much in her life. He really loved meeting her too. HE was the one who sent ME the thank you note!! So I know we'll be seeing more of him!! - Just not before March of next year. He heads out for Army Basic Training in a week. He was super sweet, though. I'm going to teach him psychic self defense and spirit communication. (as well as some other things, I'm sure)

Then the Unicorn and I were JUST starting another episode of Buffy when the Blue Falcon called.  :)

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters -  Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - He just happened to be right in our neck of the woods as he was heading out to the Blue Sun soda shop, so he called to ask if we'd like to go to the soda shop with him.  :)  What a fucking SWEETIE!! I had $10 on me, so the Unicorn and I got 5 soda's for ourselves, 3 for her and 2 for me. And then the Blue Falcon had us playing pinball a little bit too. It was pretty cool.

He wanted to take us to a pet store after the soda shop, but it was already closed.

He didn't stay after he got us home, he had other stuff to do.

But, still. Right when I had said it was time for the great grand 'back off' - here he pops up and proves me wrong.

He really does love spending time with us (and with me too).

How am I ever going to survive without him as a lover.

I don't know…

But at least I know I never have to survive without him as a friend.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing new to report.

 - The Hopefuls - Still some blips on the radar… we'll see who comes through next week I imagine.

 - Honorable Mentions - Now there are two guys from Fet who are circling the waters in the 'just friends' department. Neither of them want to be shot down to 'just friends' but both are tolerating it for now.

I’m not sure about this.

I hope I'm not teasing or leading anyone on.

I'd hate myself if I hurt anyone.

End Notes:

I really do need friends and a greater support network…

I'm not sure Fet is the greatest place to be recruiting friends, though.

It seems cruel, considering the pictures of me that I have up on Fet. It seems so heartless that I could put out that much temptation and then say 'look, but don't touch'.

How am I going to get through this without giving out pity fucks?

Gods…

I fucking suck.

Great, now I’m crying again.

So, August is almost over… and still no movement on Bran's end… in a little more than two short weeks he'll have been gone for a year.

This could not possibly suck any worse.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - I don't even know what to talk to Valkyrie about this week. The possibility of Bran not coming home? The possibility of losing the Blue Falcon because I set him up with someone? It's all just a blur of suck.

 - Writing - My vacation is almost at an end… still, no words coming my way… but this morning I did get the idea of skipping around and only writing the scenes that started coming to me… not sure what the fuck that will do to my word count, but whatever. As long as I get something down, right? I can always edit it later.

 - Reading - The reading is going really well and I'm liking it way more than the crappy horror movies I was trying to watch to keep myself entertained in the evenings. I really love leaving positive Amazon reviews too.

Bran wanted to disown me when he found out my method of picking the new thing to read.

I scroll all the way to the back (the oldest downloaded) of my Kindle App carousel, and then counting from the back I roll a D20 to pick out my book.

It's just way easier for me that way. I don't have to waffle about anything. I just go.

Bran was mostly upset that I use a virtual D20 app on my phone. He would have forgiven me if I'd actually had a real D20 laying around somewhere.

I think he forgot that he has all the game dice with him. *smirk*

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 7 hours 46 minutes, 2x awake, 20x restless, 41 minutes awake/restless.

That's a LOT more restless than normal. I wonder if the late caffeine consumption yesterday is to blame?

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

Fuck off

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - We got to talk last night, but I don't remember what we talked about. I know I apologized a lot for missing the morning call, but he didn't seem to care much about that.

I'm sorry. I wish I had more to tell you, but I've got nothing.

The closer we get to that one year mark, the closer I get to another meltdown… the more I know that this is just not going to end. He's just gone and no one knows when he's coming back.

I was able to hold onto a year as a hope… a light at the end of the tunnel… but there's just nothing.

 - The Unicorn - She was forced to leave me for a little bit yesterday even though she really didn't want to go. She was upset about that and I don't blame her. She wanted to allocate yesterday to watching more Buffy/Angel with me and getting our bonding in.

She didn't even end up going to that stupid air show because of the fucking weather. She just ended up going to see a parade instead. She was back with me earlier than expected and we got to get some good Buffy/Angel time in any way. (harumph!)

We're going to do more Buffy/Angel today, and then I have a friend coming over later just to meet her. At least I HOPE I do. It depends on whether or not he got the day off of work.

He's an Indigo child and only 5 years older than the Unicorn. They will have SO MUCH SPIRITUAL stuff to talk about!!

She really needs that, so I'm hoping he can make it.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - We're back to the great grand back off again… even though I know his schedule is starting to free up a little bit between the moving apartments, I know he still has a lot of other stuff on his plate and other friends demanding his attention.

He's made it clear that he _does_ LOVE hanging out with me, but sometimes I get the feeling that too much of a good thing? You know?

So, I'm backing off.

He'll contact me when he wants to get together again.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing new to report.

 - The Hopefuls - I don't know if you remember me mentioning the guy who flirted with me for two years before I met Bran? Yeah, he's still there. But he's made the decision to no longer discuss sex in text. I guess I'm not the only one who got on his case about that. I think he's on the right track with keeping his conversations clean. I am REALLY looking forward to seeing him. I owe him some 'making up for lost time'.

 - Honorable Mentions - I think I might have mentioned this guy I met on Fet. A few years older than me, but aware of my status as a Cougar. Super sweet and content to leave our conversation as 'just friends'.

I really need that right now.

The Blue Falcon brought it to my attention that I have literally NO FRIENDS. I've been so focused on recruiting sweeties that I've deadlocked myself into this pattern of just being used for sex and that's not serving me at all. He's absolutely right. I need friends and I need them badly. I need people I can just be close to without sex being an expectation.

So, this guy from Fet could be a pivotal turning point for me if I can just keep things clean and not accidentally slip into flirting. I do really enjoy our conversations and his virtual company. I'm looking forward to meeting him in person soon.

*sigh*

It would just be so great to have a friend… someone other than the Blue Falcon that could be a support system when things fall apart. Because they ARE going to fall apart.

Things are going to get so much worse before they get better, and I need to start preparing for that.

End Notes:

I’m on the phone with Bran now and it's pretty much confirmed. He would have to have the promotion or the job offer already in the bag in the next day or two if he was going to be back before the year was up, and I don't see that happening.

He's going to be gone longer than a year.

He's going to be with HER for longer than a year.

And I'm just alone with barely anyone to turn to.

Great, now I’m crying again.

I woke up at noon...

I stayed up stupid late finishing that stupid train wreck of a book. And then I had to get up stupidly early to get the Unicorn up and ready to go to an air show today with her grandfather.

Then I went to lay back down (turning off my alarms) and still leaving the sound off on my phone.

WHOOPS.

I woke up at noon.

NOON!

<sarcasm>Yeah, getting to sleep tonight is going to be a real treat. </sarcasm>

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - / - Writing - Nothing new to report.

 - Reading - I finished that stupid book… I wrote an honest review and then rolled a D20 to pick out my next read. *sigh* We're hoping for better this time.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - It's all fucked up. I got to bed late, and then I went back to sleep…

MEH!

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

Not today.

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - I missed my morning call from him.

 - The Unicorn - She's very sad because she was going to Buffy/Angel with me today… We still have tomorrow, but this still sucks.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - I *could* have scheduled a date today, but I didn't.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - I only told the Blue Falcon that I wasn't going to be busy today and I invited him over for snuggles. He told me he was probably going to be busy.

Whatever. It is what it is.

I should probably start backing off from him anyway.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing new…

 - The Hopefuls - … to report.

 - Honorable Mentions - There's a guy who found me on Fet. He's a couple of years older than me and has accepted the fact that I'm not going to be attracted to him due to the whole Cougar thing. *smile* Nevertheless, we seem to be forming a good friendship.

This is good.

I need more friends.

End Notes:

It's after 1 pm and I'm still on second coffee…

Yeah. I'm not sleeping tonight. 

*pout*

Cat Compersion...

Stage Fright wasn't as funny as I remember it being. The Blue Falcon and the Unicorn were slightly amused, but they both thought it could have been better.

I provided the meat for last nights dinner and even though it was tender, it wasn't very juicy. I was disappointed and I think they were too.

The Blue Falcon and I teamed up to make the potatoes and that was SUPER FUN!! I think we make good kitchen buddies.

One of the Blue Falcon's cats was all over the Unicorn last night. It was super sweet. Normally that cat has been very aloof and not very cuddly, so it was really nice to see her singling out the Unicorn as a source of cuddles. I know it made the Unicorn incredibly happy.

I got no cat cuddles. But I was happy for the both of them. I have cat compersion.

So, even if it wasn't all perfect, it was still a good night.

LOL, cat compersion, indeed.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - The Blue Falcon was rejected by the girl I tried to set him up with, and then I made it a bit clear that I was a tad upset with her. Now she's messaging him again. So, it looks like I've just shot myself in the foot again and sped myself right along to my own demise.

How am I going to get through losing him if I don't have a safety net?

How many tears am I going to have to shed in his honor?

 - Writing - Still on hold.

 - Reading - Still reading crap… but I'm over halfway done… I plan to review on Amazon… this will not go well for the author.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 7 hours 32 minutes, 4x awake, 14x restless, 52 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - The Unicorn and I happened upon Catmom as we were returning home last night. She did tell us that Dreamy had wanted to visit, but we weren't home. So, still, no cat love for me.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Blood Sugar - Skipped.

 - INR - I got a voicemail from the clinic that monitors my INR, they say it was normal when they received it. That's very frustrating. I think the machine at my clinic that takes the finger prick needs to be recalibrated.

 - Nervous System - Ye Gods am I looking forward to being adjusted this week!

 - Exercise/Yoga - / - Weight Management - The Blue Falcon turned down my suggestion to join a gym with me… so now if I want to do water aerobics somewhere it's going to also come down to me having the energy necessary to go there on my own without anyone to partner with for motivation.

Yeah… I don't see this happening.

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - We talked on his commute home last night, and as usual there's a lot of 'talk' about promoting him. But, it's still all talk. There's been no movement anywhere. He's still stuck in the same dead end that has him stuck in the same dead end…

I'm so done with this.

 - The Unicorn - We kept to ourselves for most of yesterday. She had her anime and I had my trashy romance. We did enjoy the evening with the Blue Falcon, though.

I lose her tonight and most of tomorrow because JerkDad's stepfather wants to take her to an air show. She doesn't really want to go, and I don't really want her to go. This is supposed to be my time with her and common courtesy would have extended the invite to me as well, but one couldn't expect an asshole like JerkDad to consider the feelings of others.

I get her back tomorrow night.

Monday we're hoping to meet with someone who's going to be very good for her.  :)

So, there are still good things.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - I don't know why I'm fighting so hard to lose him. How can I advocate the one thing that is sure to hurt me more than anything else could right now?

What the fuck am I doing to myself!

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing…

 - The Hopefuls - … new to…

 - Honorable Mentions - … report.

End Notes:

I guess if I can feel compersion over a couple of cats, I can feel compersion in other ways too?

I'm not alien to the idea of compersion. I've felt it before.

Can I feel it with the Blue Falcon?

*sigh*

Gods, I hope so.

Dating SUCKS!

I'm really enjoying this vacation time with the Unicorn. I think it's something both she and I really needed. Just some good, quality, Mother/Daughter bonding time. I’m not even upset that it gets in the way of me trying to overcome my writer's block. I think I need the break from trying to break it.

Naturally, I have boys coming out of the woodwork wanting to get together with me and I have to keep turning them down, but that's a pretty good test to see which ones are just going to leave me anyway. Maybe I should fake more Mother/Daughter bonding just to see who will keep talking to me when I say I can't meet with them right away.

*sigh*

Dating sucks.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - I agree with the Blue Falcon that I need more friends. I'm just unsure about how to make them. I think Meetup might be an answer, but that's never really worked for me in the past. I need something that has an online discussion group too. Something where I can get to know people on screen a bit first and then they’re happy to meet me in person.

We'll see.

 - Writing - Still on hold.

 - Reading - So this shitty book I’m reading has transitioned from a collection Paranormal Romance shorts to the newest story being a BDSM short under a different writer, but a lot of the same mistakes seem to be there. I'm pretty sure it's the same author, just a different pen name.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 8 hours 25 minutes, 5x awake, 18x restless, 44 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Blood Sugar - 135 this morning… so it remains the same that we're edging into 'high'. It's not too high. It's not 'dangerously high'… but it's a little high.

 - INR - I think I forgot to mention that that's high too. Also, they were training a new phlebotomist. She totally blew out the vein in my right hand. I have a giant ass bruise there.

 - Nervous System - I'm really looking forward to seeing my Chiropractor again… especially with that ligament in my heal acting up and all the body trauma from the road trip… I know I need some work done.

 - Inflammation - I'm angry about how much weight I've gained… I know the inflammation is to blame, but there's still nothing I can do about it.

 - Exercise/Yoga - I messaged the Blue Falcon about joining a gym with me, but no response yet. So, I guess we'll just have to see.

 - Weight Management - I'm so fucked.

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - I got to chat with him a little bit this morning. As usual, nothing is different. It's all just more of the same…

I don't know when this will end.

 - The Unicorn - We got in some good Buffy/Angel time yesterday because she was very curious about Angel's baby. It was sweet. I love our bonding time.

It's also adorable as hell that she keeps trying to be the voice of reason when it comes to the Blue Falcon. Every time she sees me getting moon eyed over him she's all "Don't get too attached." - and I'm all, "Sorry, that ship has sailed!". LOL, it's still cute though.

I got a message from JerkBoy this morning. His dad wants to take her to an air show this weekend, but I was brave and stood up to him. I asked him if it would be okay to ask HER permission before impacting Mother/Daughter time.

Go Me!

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - The Unicorn and I are going to his place tonight. Dinner and a movie. I'm bringing one of my Filet Mignon roasts and the Blue Falcon will be providing the potatoes and veg. It should be a good dinner, but I'm sure the cats are going to go a little crazy over the meat smell.

We're going to watch Stage Fright… OMG!! I can't wait!

*sigh*

So, the Blue Falcon got rejected by the girl I tried to set him up with. She gave some bullshit excuse about how he wasn't her type. What fucking ever, Princess. I don't fucking care.

She better not ever whine to me again that she can't find someone who will treat her the way she wants to be treated because I KNOW the Blue Falcon could have given her that. Stupid little bint. She gets what she deserves.

It is, however, eye opening.

I've rejected guys on less.

I need to be more open.

Careful… but open.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - I don't even think about them.

 - The Hopefuls - This one guy that I've known for ages told me this morning that he's not going to talk about sex anymore. I guess he's been getting it a lot that girls think he's ONLY about sex. Okay, he DID talk about sex a lot, but he's all pent up and I kinda get it. I applaud him for trying to keep it clean, though. It shows a lot of character on his part.

I am looking forward to meeting him in person, though. I really want to be the one that breaks his sexual dry spell.  :)  I owe him that.

 - Honorable Mentions - There was this one guy I rejected because he sent me an unsolicited dick pic after I expressly told him not to…

Do I owe him a second chance?

*shrug* I don't know… can't decide.

End Notes:

Which pretty much brings me full circle right back to Dating SUCKS!

GRRRR!

Bran, just come home already so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore!

But not in that way...

I keep getting the 'We're Gay' song from Stage Fright stuck in my head. LOL…

There's a good chance I'll be inflicting that movie on the Blue Falcon and the Unicorn tomorrow night, so that should hopefully take care of the problem.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - Valkyrie had mentioned to the Blue Falcon that he's spoiled me and he agreed. He knows he's totally ruined me for other guys. Now that I know someone as wonderful as him is out there, I want them all to be wonderful.

 - Writing - Still on hold.

 - Reading - Still reading crap… there's a lot of it to get through.

Alternately, I'm on this really great mailing list that gets me about a dozen free books a day… I will never be hurting for reading material.

I'm hoping that my 'post productive' hours will be reading instead of stupid horror movies from now on.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - I got to bed late last night because I was still flushing the vinegar from my coffee maker, but I still got almost 8 hours.

7 hours 54 minutes, 3x awake, 12x restless, 35 minutes awake/restless.

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Blood Sugar - I saw my primary doctor yesterday and my HA1C is a little high. It's at 6.9 when we want it 6.4 or lower… it may mean an increase in medication, we're not sure yet. She wants me to go over it with my weight loss doctor.

 - Weight Management - I'm gaining weight… my diet is fine in terms of 'volume' of food. I don't take in that many calories. I'm not overeating. But I'm still gaining weight because of the inflammation and my poor diet.

*sigh*

This is bad.

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - WE FINALLY GOT TO TALK A LITTLE BIT YESTERDAY!!!

It was so nice to hear his voice. Gods I fucking miss him so much.

Sometimes I think I talk about the Blue Falcon too much, but that's literally the only good thing in my life… so it should be expected.

He had a good day yesterday, which I was happy to hear about.

Other than that… it's all still the same as usual.

Fuck.

I just wish he could come home already.

- The Unicorn - Despite yesterday being a doctor appointment day and my ride home taking forever, we still got in some very good Buffy/Angel time. She got to see the musical episode of Buffy (FINALLY!) and she laughed her ass off. It was great. I love her so much! I'm so happy that we're spending this extra time together.

The Blue Falcon has been warning us both that she might still go through a hormonal phase where she doesn't like me very much and it was cute to see her reaction. She looked at him like he'd grown a second head made of cockroaches. Like she could never imagine a time when she wouldn't love me as much as she loves me now.

That's my girl.  :)

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bios there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Meh…

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - It took absolutely every shred of my willpower to not text him yesterday.

*warm sigh*

I just got so used to him being there that I truly felt his absence when he was gone.

Then he accidentally called me last night when he meant to call one of his other friends, but he took it as an excuse to check up on me anyway ('cause he's sweet like that) - We ended up making plans for tomorrow night.

TOMORROW NIGHT!!

I get to see him again!!

I'm probably going to cook everyone dinner at his place and then we'll watch Stage Fright… it should be a good time.

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Nothing…

 - The Hopefuls - … new to…

 - Honorable Mentions - … report.

End Notes:

So, now I just can't wait until tomorrow.

I hope the Unicorn wants more Buffy/Angel today.  :)