I had a great time
with the Blue Falcon yesterday. It's in his section below.
Mental Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Therapy - My
ride is all set up. Insurance is covered. I have a phone and that shouldn't be
an issue ever again. So, I get to see Valkyrie tomorrow. Maybe she'll have some
feedback on me and this whole dating thing?
- Writing - It's
unfortunate, but she's going to have to wait when it comes to the updated
chapters. I'll get the new ones to her when I have the descriptors uploaded.
I'm already running
into snags there, though. I know I SHOULD be adding in descriptions… but right
now the story is tight enough that I can't seem to find places to wedge
descriptions in… I'll keep working at it, though.
Maybe I'll come up
with something.
- Sleep /
Fitbit - 8 hours, 1 minute, 2x awake, 11x restless, total of 31 minutes
awake/restless.
- Fur-babies -
Nothing new to report.
Physical Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Caffeine - For
some strange reason, despite the halfway decent sleep. I'm waking up groggier
and groggier in the mornings. I just can't seem to get my ass in gear… *sigh* I
think I'll keep it to 3 today, though.
- Blood Sugar -
Middle of the night snack, so no testing today.
Relationships / Family:
- Bran - Some
days I wonder what my life will be like when he comes home…
He says there'll be
tons of sex.
I hope there'll be
tons of snuggles.
I'm sure we'll fight
just as much about what to watch on TV.
I hope I never take
him for granted ever again.
I just want to hug
him… hold him… ask him how his day was… make him beef stew… or chili… anything
to show him how much I appreciate him.
*sigh* I miss him so
much
- The Unicorn -
I love it that she has a phone of her own now and that she knows how to
use it and everything. She called me yesterday morning just as the Blue Falcon
was coming over. She wanted to wish me a happy mothers day and to suggest that
we do something special on her next visit. I put her on Speaker phone and the
Blue Falcon and I sorta mapped out that we're going to bake cupcakes or
something. Hopefully this will be early enough in the day that it won't be so
ungodly hot out yet.
What can I say?
I love her to death.
I also love the
connection that the Blue Falcon has with her.
Relationships / Sweeties:
[ If you're a reader and having
trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and
below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bio's there. - this is a
work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed,
don't worry, I'll get to you. ]
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I love him so fucking much.
It took me a long
time to get there with him emotionally… and yes, I'm still okay with the fact
that he doesn't reciprocate. I told him how much I love spending time with him
and he DID echo reciprocation there.
He got to my place
about 11am. We chatted on speaker phone with the Unicorn for a bit.
I love how
comfortable he is around me. Like, he has no issue just taking his pants off as
soon as he's past the threshold of my door, LOL… I think I suggested snuggles…
So we converged in the Chamber of Snuggles and proceeded to get naked. I just
love being in his arms. He's so loving.
I was really tired
though… Like I still had NOT woken up for some reason. And I commented about
getting light headed too. He asked if I was hydrated enough and I said that
shouldn't be a problem… truthfully I don't know what the issue is… (maybe I
should talk to my doctor?)
Anyway…
He started to kiss
me…
Then he found out
how wet I was for him already…
Then he started to
experiment and see just how many fingers I could take inside me. :)
He was incredibly
surprised that I could actually take all four and he was close to fisting me
and I was still stretching to accommodate him. He was impressed…
Especially with the
fact that I was back to being tight again right after.
Oh, but those
fingers? Yeah, he got a little aggressive with me!! It was luscious! He got me
screaming! LOL.
Then he put himself
inside me and we had sex for a little bit, but he overheated too fast, so we
went back to just snuggles and I was okay with that.
He asked what else
we should do.
We quickly settled
on a) lunch (breakfast for me) of Taco Bell, and b) popcorn and a movie. He made the Taco Bell run while I got the
popcorn going. Then he was back and we settled in to watch Varsity Blues.
We were both fully
clothed again.
After the movie - I
barely mentioned being low on a couple of things and he was like 'we can make a
run!' - so, off we went. Both Sam's Club and a different Cub than the one by
where I live. He made me drink some Apple Vinegar (don’t ask, it's nasty) to see
if that would make me less light headed. And he bought me chocolate!
Then back to my
place for more naked snuggles before he had to leave so he could do movie night
with his friends.
--
When I hugged him
goodbye, I was already doing that thing were I missed him and he wasn't even
gone yet.
That's not so good.
That's addiction
level emotional attachment.
I think I need to
work a bit harder at keeping that in check.
--
I do love him
though.
There was this point
during the date when I got up to get more water and I was having trouble
standing and he physically held me up…
Gods… he's just one
of the best things that's ever happened to me.
I really wish I had
more sweeties like him, but I think he's one of a kind!
Relationships / Potentials
and Honorable Mentions:
- The One
Timers - No one talks to me… this makes me sad.
- The Hopefuls
- I do have a date tonight… I'm not super excited… there's really no
connection there… *sigh* whatever.
- Honorable
Mentions - Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
I’m not sure where I
am on the whole dating thing right now.
Part of me really
doesn't want to keep doing it. Part of me knows that I have to.
I'm just so tired of
the one night stands… Even if I feed from them, the energy spike is short lived
and doesn't sustain me. They're empty calories.
They're nothing like
what the Blue Falcon gives me, or like what Rain or Jasper used to give me.
*sigh* Why can't I
have more of those kinds of connections?
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