The Truth is in the Waiting...

I woke up to a brief note from Jasper this morning. He made it back home to his family safe and sound.

I'm really happy for him. Being away from HLS was killing him. I wanted what was best for him and what was best for him was her. Is her. Will always be her. They need each other like Bran and I need each other.

I will miss him, though.

He was the one who showed me what it was to be held down by someone who meant it and I will never forget that lesson.

That's where Friday was supposed to come into play, but Friday is in his own private corner of hell right now and nobody knows if or when he'll come out. We also don't know who he'll be when he comes out. Holding a girl down might not even be his thing anymore.

The truth is in the waiting.

Mental Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Therapy - I gamed for a little bit last night. I made it through two of my three characters before my drive quit on me. *sigh* I may need to come to grips with the fact that I'm just not feeling the gaming grind anymore.

I see Valkyrie today.

I’m not even sure what we'll talk about.

I guess I’m just feeling a bit numb right now.

 - Writing - I finished my revisions all the way through the epilogue of Act I yesterday. Then I got to work uploading the revisions to Scribophile. I made it as far as uploading chapter 4 before my brain quit on me. I'm hoping to get a lot more done today before I leave to see Valkyrie.

It's still a process. There are still things I need to double check before the upload. It's not a lot… just last minute things. But enough that I need to be awake and alert to look for any mistakes.

My current Hopeful 1 is beta reading me now. So, that's awesome! Valkyrie, of course, has been waiting for the updated chapters with baited breath. I also may have acquired another beta reader last night. We're calling him Hopeful 3.

I should be in the creation process of Act II.a sometime next week.

So, that will be interesting.

 - Sleep / Fitbit - 7 hours 54 minutes, 0x awake, 14x restless, total of 27 minutes restless.

Check out that zero times awake! I like the looks of that!!

 - Fur-babies - Nothing new to report.

Physical Health / Unfuck Yourself:

 - Caffeine - 3 today

 - Blood Sugar - 130 this morning

 - INR - Test tomorrow

 - Nervous System - Adjustment next week.

 - Inflammation - Seem to be on top of it.

 - Exercise/Yoga - Uuuugggggghhhhhh…..

 - Weight Management - No idea

Relationships / Family:

 - Bran - He's still trapped and hating it.

*sigh* I don't know.

I’m starting to feel like this is going beyond the reasonable bounds of karma. I feel like he's paid the price enough for his sins and he can come home now.

Something tells me he's going to be gone a full year. Just for the sake of symmetry.

Fuck me… that would suck.

 - The Unicorn - Nothing new to report.

Relationships / Sweeties:

[ If you're a reader and having trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bio's there. - this is a work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed, don't worry, I'll get to you. ]

 - Recent Encounters - Nothing new to report.

 - Updates on Favorites -

 - Blue Falcon - He's coming over this Sunday to spend some time with the Unicorn and Me. We're going to be scoping out locations to see Fireworks on my birthday.

Bran and I have also decided that the Blue Falcon is getting the official Blue Falcon T-Shirt for his birthday. LOL.

The thing that's interesting about the Blue Falcon is that he can't feel love. But, damn, he fakes it well! Shit, I'm an empath and I can't tell that he doesn't love me!

Relationships / Potentials and Honorable Mentions:

 - The One Timers - Criminy and I are still talking it out. He still wants me to feed on him again. I'm still reassuring him that I'll take care of him after. We'll see.

 - The Hopefuls -

Hopeful 1: We still chit-chat every day. He's going to be busy with work a lot this week. Our plan is still to do an overnight on my next non-unicorn weekend. He wants to make me feel loved…

*warm sigh*

I can't wait for that!

Hopeful 2: No dates are set, yet. I'm still on the fence over whether or not we're really all that compatible. But, he's treating me as a whole person and I really like that in a guy, so I feel he deserves a chance.

Hopeful 3: We just met on OKC last night. So far I really like this guy. He's all about the respect. I'm thinking I might stack a date with him right around the same time as Hopeful 1. We're going to pop popcorn and watch Trick or Treat. He's also looking at beta reading for me as well. (so hot!)

 -- Friday -- I'm being patient with Friday… I'm being as supportive as I can be. I'm being loving.

I hope he's able to get through this process unscathed… but it's still too soon to know for sure.

Really, it's not about me or what he could give me. I just want him to be okay.

 - Honorable Mentions - Nothing new to report.

End Notes:

The truth is in the waiting.

Bran, Criminy, Friday…

Everyone…

So, there just isn't much else…

I just have to keep waiting.