It's still way to
early to tell, but I might have gotten lucky last night. It's all down below in
the recent encounters. :)
Mental Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Therapy - I’m
really upset that I didn't get to see Valkyrie or Bubbles yesterday. This whole
mess with my phone has been so frustrating.
And yes, I did go
into survival mode, and I gamed most of yesterday. But I was also chatting with
my date most of the day too, and that's always a good sign. When they maintain
contact even after you schedule a time to meet. That shows real effort on their
part and is indicative of something being more than just sexual.
I also stayed up
past my bedtime gaming, and I'm feeling it today. I need to be more serious
about getting to bed on time. I can't lose sleep because I want to keep
playing.
That's not good for
me.
I'm really feeling
it this morning. I'm zoning out a lot.
- Writing - So,
I did end up taking yesterday off, and I'm deeply unhappy about that. It's a
bad sign when my muse isn't there for me to tap into. It means that my mental
state has deteriorated to the point where I can't even tap into my best
therapy.
I am feeling better
today, though. So, I'm at least going to try, but I’m not going to push too
hard. Maybe just my one hour?
- Sleep /
Fitbit - Expecting the new bands to be delivered today. :)
- Fur-babies -
Nothing new to report.
Physical Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Caffeine - Probably
going to need 4 today.
- Blood Sugar -
139 - I ate something right before bed again. I think I need to stop
doing that.
- Exercise/Yoga
- It's probably not going to happen today.
- Weight
Management - The only good thing about feeling so fucked up is that my
stomach ties itself into knots and I can barely get food down. So, I ate one
sandwich and 4 chicken nuggets yesterday… in other words, barely anything at
all. I think I'll be better today, though.
Relationships / Family:
- Bran - He
knocked down a significant amount of training yesterday!
That makes me really
happy because training is the reason he left in the first place, and if he
get's serious about locking in those trainings, he can work on coming home.
I think that's his
battle plan.
More than just
trying to sort out a different living arrangement. I think he's just going to
continue to leverage the upside of being with _her_ and the kids, and then he's
going to get the training done and apply for positions back in the cities.
If last night's date
is any indication of how things are going to go, he's got some wiggle room too.
*sigh* we remain
hopeful.
- The Unicorn -
Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Sweeties:
[ If you're a reader and having
trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and
below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bio's there. - this is a
work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed,
don't worry, I'll get to you. ]
- Recent
Encounters - I've already toyed with a code name for this one, even
though the rule is that I have to wait until after the second date to assign
it. I already know the thing that sets him apart from the others.
- 1) good company: He couldn't stay long, but that was okay.
Originally the plan was for him to bring a bottle of whiskey with him, but we
ended up scrapping that. I was SO nervous, but he'd been talking to me most of
the day, so I already felt that we had a pretty strong rapport going.
- 2) good conversation: I admit, I probably dominated the
conversation a bit. A lot was gone into about the writing. He asked me some
questions about my kinks and I told him about my forced seduction fantasies and
about what I know about myself and my sexual preferences based on my
psychological traumas.
I told him I was
willing to participate if there was something that he wanted to try, though,
but he didn't have any ideas. I made the suggestion that we watch porn together
for research purposes.
Science, dammit!
--
We'd already chatted
about everything that I'm going through with Bran right now. So, I didn't feel
the need to rehash any of that.
I know he's going
through something too, but he's not ready to tell me about it yet. And that's
okay too.
The sense that I get
from him is that we're both healers who are having a tough time with something
right now. So there's high potential here for us to really dig deep and help
each other.
- 3) good snuggles: OMG… he was so great at this. Lots of TIGHT
holding, caressing, and kissing. He took off his shirt and pants, but kept his
boxers on. I took off my tank top because it felt like he needed skin-on-skin
contact. I would say that I mostly held him, but he asked me twice if there was
anything more he could be doing to help me feel better. I tried to explain that
he was already doing it, but I don't think I explained it very well.
We are both looking
forward to cuddling again!
He did find that
sweeet spot on my neck while we were kissing, and he said he loves my moans.
HEH, I told him I've
not yet even begun to moan, and then I explained that I'm a screamer.
LOL, I think he
can't wait to find out how loud.
We had time for a
quickie, and I was willing!
He wanted to wait.
He wanted to wait
for a time when he had more time with me. He wanted to make it special with me.
Mad respect.
Though, I did
demonstrate what cock worship is, *smirk*
He says I put him
right in purgatory. On that edge where he still wanted to wait, but I'd given
him some serious blue balls, LOL.
It's that thing I do
with my tongue, I just know it.
--
There is a chance
that he's coming over again tonight.
We have already
discussed the possibilities of an overnight stay. :)
- Updates on
Favorites -
- Blue Falcon -
I get to see him tomorrow night.
:)
Relationships / Potentials
and Honorable Mentions:
- The One
Timers - Nothing new to report.
- The Hopefuls
- Nothing new to report.
- Honorable
Mentions - Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Former
Sweeties:
- Jasper -
Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
So, in closing. Part
of me really wants to feel hopeful about last night. Part of me wants to hold
back and not get too attached. It's just that he was good, and he felt like a
positive connection. So, I really do feel like riding out that positive energy
for as long as I can.
One other really
positive thing?
I'm not even
thinking about Friday anymore.
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