Friday is really
beginning to concern me.
I've not heard from
him since last Saturday, and yet OKC will show me when he's been online. I'm
really starting to worry that I've been cat fished again. He did seem awfully
perfect for my needs and he hasn't taken our conversation off OKC no matter how
many times I've asked/begged him to.
*sigh*
I would have been
comfortable giving up on men because it sounded like Bran was coming home and
like Friday would have been perfect for me. But, now it appears that neither of
those things are true anymore.
So, what now?
I get really bored
and lonely at night.
I just don't want to
be a one night stand anymore.
But, I would love
some company.
Mental Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Therapy - My
phone has finally been turned back on. So, I'll be able to see Valkyrie and
Bubbles next week if Bubbles has an opening. I should be making that
appointment today.
I’m starting to get
a little bored with the game therapy. A lot of it is grinding right now, so I
might look into ways to game a little more or differently to keep it
interesting.
- Writing - I
wrote that seriously trope kiss in the rain scene yesterday. My one worry is
that it's not 'foreshadowing' Jessa trusting Daniel, but more that it's going
to make the actual sex scene repetitive. *grump* I guess I'll have to rely on
crit feedback on that one.
Other than that, I
think the scene played out well. I'm also a bit worried that Jessa's comfort
level was out of character for her, but I think I can rely on crit feedback for
that too. The scene may or may not be working. I guess we'll have to see.
- Sleep /
Fitbit - Hopefully I get my replacement bands today and game time will
no longer be recorded as sleep time!
- Fur-babies - Visit's
from both Dreamy and Splotches yesterday. Both got cuddles too. I love Dreamy
so much and he just loves me right back. I just love it when he relaxes in my
arms.
Physical Health / Unfuck
Yourself:
- Caffeine - Should
be fine with 3 today.
- Blood Sugar -
123 today, so that's much better. Way more stable in the normal'ish
range, so I’m happy about that.
- INR - Expect
an update…
- Nervous
System - … next week.
- Inflammation
- It feels like I’m carrying a ton of tension in my shoulders, but I
know I'm not. I know it's the inflammation. *sigh* I think I should raise the
dose of my anti-inflammatory supplement for a bit. Just to see if I can get it
to go down.
- Exercise/Yoga
- This, I will get back to tomorrow. Then I will be done bleeding and
hopefully there will be no more fatigue or cramping. Jeez… fucking hate my
blood moon.
- Weight
Management - I actually only ate twice yesterday. My standard breakfast
of a cheesy, scrambled egg sandwich and then a dinner of one serving of chicken
and dumplings.
Granted I also ate
one and a half king size candy bars too.
:/
I was in that blood
moon *MUST HAVE CHOCOLATE* phase.
Relationships / Family:
- Bran - Every
day it starts to sound more and more like he's going to have to leverage her
and the kids to secure a place to live.
Fuck.
I hate her so much.
I hate this so much.
I just wish he'd
come home and be done with her already.
- The Unicorn -
Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Sweeties:
[ If you're a reader and having
trouble keeping the code named sweeties straight, look up above this entry and
below the header. There's a link to a list of names/bio's there. - this is a
work in progress, so if you're a sweetie and you don't see your name listed,
don't worry, I'll get to you. ]
- Recent
Encounters - Nothing new to report.
- Updates on
Favorites -
- Blue Falcon -
It was so lovely to see him yesterday, and it was on the very tip of my
tongue to tell him that I love him, but I held back for some reason.
He wasn't up for
hanging out because he'd just given blood and he was wiped. He desperately
needed to just go home and go to bed, but he was there for me.
I got my hair cut.
It's a bit shorter in back than I prefer, but it's fine. It will grow out. It's
a bit longer on top than I like, but it's fine, I can get it trimmed once the
back is where I want it.
It will all work out
eventually.
The Blue Falcon also
swung me over for a quick trip to the grocery store. (hence chocolate).
LOL, the best part
though? We discussed the Unicorn getting her period, as well as me experiencing
a painful cramp when I was right next to him. The idea of blood didn't even
phase him one little bit. All he said was: "I've heard sex can help with that,
and I just gave blood, so I'm not at my best, but I'm willing to take one for
the team."
To which I replied:
"Correction, orgasms help with cramps."
"Oh, well
you're fucked then."
We both laugh.
He also told me that
he didn't pick up on any manipulation from JerkDad when we went out, but he DID
sense a little autism there! Interesting!
It would be very
interesting to find out if JerkDad himself isn't as perfect as he claims to be.
Anyway, the Blue
Falcon got me home safely and I went back to grinding on my video games.
We're probably going
to see each other again on Monday.
I think that should
be a popcorn and movie date. :)
Relationships / Potentials
and Honorable Mentions:
- The One
Timers - Nothing new to report.
- The Hopefuls
-
So, how long do I
hold out on this one?
When is the right
time to give up, call him a cat fish and walk away?
When do I realize
that he was too perfect and that should have been my first, and biggest, red
flag of all?
- Honorable
Mentions - Nothing new to report.
Relationships / Former
Sweeties:
- Jasper -
Nothing new to report.
End Notes:
And if I do walk
away from Friday… do I resume my search?
Do I keep trying to
find that one guy who can pin me the hell down and fuck me so hard I forget how
to spell my own name? Do I keep trying to find the one guy who can give me the
thing that Jasper only gave me a taste of?
Is that guy even out
there?
He must be, right?
*sigh*
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